Lost, everything is lost
And everything I've loved before is gone
Alone like the coming of the frost
And a cold winter's chill in my stony heart
And where were You when all that I've hoped for?
Where were You when all that I've dreamed?
Came crashing down in shambles around me
You were on the cross
Pain, could you take away the pain?
If I find someone to blame, would it make my life seem easier?
Alone, all my friends are asleep
And I can't find anyone to stay awake with me
Where were You when sin stole my innocence?
Where were You when I was ashamed?
Hiding in a life, I wish, I never made
You were on the cross, my God, my God, all alone, all alone
You were on the cross, You died for us, all alone, all alone
You were on the cross, victorious, all alone, all alone
You were there in all of my suffering
And You were there in doubt and in fear
I'm waiting on the dawn to reappear
Mine and Matt's courtship was unusual to say the least. I liked him, he didn’t like me. We were friends for a while, then he liked me but I didn’t like him. Somehow (spoiler it was a lot of prayer) we ended up together. Before I actually met Matt though, I knew his songs. I had a very long carpool to work and my friend would play Matt’s music for me.
I remember hearing the song “You Were On The Cross” and crying the first time I heard it. Here was a song that got shame. Here was someone who knew what it was like. More importantly, I saw I was not alone. Not only did Matt obviously understand what shame was like, but he reminded that I was seen by God and it was ok. I was ok.
It is Holy Week this week, the ending of Lent and a time of reflection. You may be religious, or you may not be. You may have had intentions of a deep and reflective Lent and it got away from you (guilty) or maybe this has been very contemplative time for you. No matter where you are at I wanted to leave this song, and these words with you. Maybe, like me, they will shine a light on your struggles and let you know that you are not alone, maybe it can help you to go deeper in the final days of Lent, or maybe you will just think it is a pretty song.
That is all I have for you this week. This song says so much more than I could, and says it a lot better as well. Wherever you are at, remember that the dawn will appear. There will be light again, and you are not alone.